I only started this blog this year, and I wish I had  blogged more to be quite honest, so I'm making that one of the things to work on in the new year. I thought I would write a post today about how thankful I am for everything and everyone in my life. I'm so, so lucky to have the friends that I do, and an amazing boyfriend who may tease me everyday, but he makes me day even better just by being here.

So this year I started my youtube channel, which I know isn't great yet because I don't have the best lighting (or face hehe), but that's another one of my goals is to get a light for it. I really like making videos, even though very, very few people watch it, I'm so grateful for them too.

I thought I would put in a few pictures here for fun and giggles!

Those nights where you hear something you didn't think you'd ever hear and it sends you into an emotional frenzy is one of those nights for me. I always try to keep my emotions level, but sometimes it's harder when you hear something and it just triggers it and you suddenly start crying about it and then slowly other things and you know you're okay but you keep crying anyways.

Dealing with emotions wasn't something I was good at in high school. I went through a lot of crap and a lot of friends and recently some other stuff has happened and it's brought back those old crap memories.
I'm such a different person than I was back then. I will be honest and say I'm still emotional, but I'm stable, and I'm much more confident. I really wish that certain events wouldn't affect us in these ways, but everyone gets hurt now and then, and god dammit does it ever suck. It's like a massive slap in the face each time you try and get back up.

I have a great support system now with some close friends, who I'm very grateful for, as I didn't have many friends back in high school. I think everyone needs someone to fall back on, and I wish I had that back then. Things that happen in your life make you stronger, and if that happens to you too, just know it'll be okay in the end. You're a good person and you shouldn't have someone tell you that you're not important to anyone because that's not true.
I don't really know where I'm going with this post, it was an emotional night and I just want any readers to know that you're not alone and that it's okay to get upset and hurt but you will get back up on your feet, just like other people have done.

If anyone wants someone to talk to, never feel like you can't email me, because you always can! You are all lovely people and deserve happiness!

I really don't know where I'm going with this whole post, but I'm going to end it here. Good night/good morning or day!

Toodle-doo!

I never used to get sick, I swear. And suddenly it's hitting me like a brick, saying "Hey Jena, karma's after you!" I swear it really is saying that. The one upside to not feeling so great is to lay in bed all day, but honestly, when you want or need to get stuff done, it really sucks!

I had to miss my class today and I really don't like missing school, and I know tomorrow I'm going to feel so out of the loop. My brother was sick too, and my mom now isn't feeling so great. I really hope we all feel better soon because this stinks!

I think I might try and do a Motivational Monday post or something of the sorts to get me blogging again. I had thought about doing vlogmas this year, but I decided against it as I didn't have that sort of time and good internet connection at that.
I might also start doing a face of the day and my hair and possibly my outfits. I just need someone to be my photographer, any volunteers?!
Thought I would post even while sickly and say hello and that The 1975 have been the reason for getting me up and going, and if you haven't heard of them yet, please go listen they are lovely! I'll leave the video for Girls below and hopefully I'll be up for blogging again and hopefully of my life and pictures so this blog doesn't seem to empty!