Hello lovelies! I thought I would start a new series for Sunday; a top 5 favourites. This can range from nail polishes, like today, to makeup and to clothes. Even music and or book favourites. if you would like me to go deeper into certain products, let me know.

I'm not sure if I could really rate these polishes by favourites, but I will do my best to give you a short and sweet review.

Hello my love buckets! Yup, you are now called that! I wanted to write this bog post about how I, myself, deal with panic attacks and my anxiety. I feel like more recently, people have been more open about their dealings with anxiety. Which in my mind, is so nice to be able to connect with someone like that.

Everyone deals with panic attacks or anxiety differently than some. Some may also have different levels of both. I would consider mine fairly mild compared to others, but I wanted to share my coping mechanisms with you all. Just last night I had a mild panic attack while at my boyfriend's work BBQ. I can not explain why it happened, as I was totally fine just minutes before walking in the backyard. I had sweaty palms, had a hard time breathing and I felt as if I was getting squished.

I quickly removed myself from the situation and found the bathroom so I could have a few minutes to myself. I texted my best friend Samantha and my other friend Kaitlyn who also understands. I find texting someone and/or talking about it out loud. I found it harder to get over it than I usually do, and that totally threw me off. Once I got home and talked it over with my boyfriend, who really tries to understand how I'm feeling and how to deal with it, I started to feel better.

Basically, what helps me is sometimes fresh air, my own space and something to hold in my hands if I am in a public space. If I get anxiety on the public transit, I usually find something soothing to listen to and try to drink water if I have my water bottle and breathe it out until I can tell myself things will be okay. Lately, Troye Sivan's new album has been the most helpful thing for me in those times.

I find for me, if I have someone to communicate with to get it out of my system. I do know that this will not necessarily be the same for everyone, and that my methods may not help for everyone. It just happens to be the way I've been sorting it out for the last few years that it's escalated. I know some people cannot have caffeine or alcohol if they deal with anxiety, but I'm usually okay with caffeine. I have had previous experiences where I had a panic attack while drinking alcohol. Uusally i'm alright, but it depends on the situation that is around me.

I am very thankful that I do not suffer more severe attacks than I do, and I am so thankful for my friends and my family who are coming to terms with me in this way, and for helping me and trying to understand. If you want me to go into more detail about how I deal with it and more situations, I can do a video on my channel if you let me know!

I know this was another rambly blog post, but I do quite enjoy these. It's like little chats to you but I just don't get a response, ha! I will hopefully be posting more this week, even though i am fairly busy. I hope you all have a great night/morning, and please leave a comment if you have any questions regarding my experiences! I love you all!

Toodle-doo!  

I feel terrible. To give you an overview, I have a stuffed nose, a very phlemy cough, (tmi, but it's life) a nauseous tummy, and a horrible cough.

I got a cough/no voice about two weeks ago. From there, it's progressed into a horrible head cold with the worst phlemy coughs ever. I started my new 32 ish hour ECE job this week, and guess what? This girl has not been able to work her first two days. Yesterday I was there for an hour, and I got sent home by my boss. She was very gentle about it, and told me to go to the clinic. They were not open yesterday, and I don't have a doctor yet. Assuming I would feel better after a day of rest, I woke up today feeling semi-ok, and I tried my hardest to push past the horrible feelings in my head and stomach. Another tmi, but just before leaving for the bus, I had a 'lovely' time getting rid of all my extra mucous, and I just knew today wouldn't work out.

I arrived at work and my boss opened the door, took one look at me, and kindly sent me away. She wanted me to make sure I wasn't contagious, and working with kids is really hard if you are sick. I am slowly beating myself up about it, but I do know that she means it in the kindest way, as she doesn't want anyone in the building to get sick due to me. I feel like I am a horrible employee for being sick my first week, and honestly, it is not me faking it. My mom said when I was younger, I got really sick like this and I wound up needing an inhaler.

I went straight to the clinic from work, only to find out they are not open until 1. The pharmacy connected to it was open, so I went in asking, or more like pleading for someone to suggest some medication to me. I now have some lovely Tylenol complete sitting next to me on the bed and one trying it's best to work it's magic on me. The pharmacist told me he's sold plenty of it in the last month, and the majority of it was a recommendation from the doctor anyways. He said I should take the drowsy one and nap when I got home. It hasn't hit me yet, but I'll be napping after this sad, sad blog post.

Basically, I feel like a rubbish employee that can't deal with a cold, but the fact I've gone in both days to try and push it out of my system and forget about it and work, showed my boss that I did want to be there. She told me that and it did make me feel a bit better. I may go back to the clinic later if I see no changes, but I should be better the next few days with this and some chicken noodle soup.

So that is what's happening with me lately. I am a walking human of sickness. And I am trying my hardest to fight it off just so I can finally work full time in my job that I worked hard to get to. I'm praying my energy will be much higher for tomorrow and I will feel up to working.

The pill is hitting me now, so off I go for a little nap. Thanks for reading this nonsense blog post. Hve a great day/week!

Toodle-doo!